I really love Opie. I just feel this incredible desire to express that to the whole world. It has been so long since I have felt any real depth of emotion for another human being (other than my darling children)....it is almost foreign to me to open up my heart this wide. After years of waiting for the opportunity to just give myself...and not finding such an opportunity, I thought I lost the abilty to really want another human being - but thankfully, I haven't.
* Ok...one more thing I just have to lay out there my darling readers....I sooooo wish I had my mom to share all this with. I opened my computer tonight and magically Bob Dylan started playing....I was recording him onto my Walkman the other night....and immediately I thought of my Mom. Aghhhh...finally I have found love again...and I can't tell her about it. I hope she knows. I'm not as broken as I thought I was *
So, with this amazing love and affection comes some sense of jealousy. How horrid is that? * How 8th grade of me * But I need to admit it, to write about. If you put it out there...maybe you can actually deal with the essence of your immaturity *or good common sense*...right? We spent last weekend enjoying each other's company and at the near end of our time together...I actually DEMANDED that his ex be exciled off his social network page. Yes, I got greedy and impatient. I'm not sure why she was still his 'friend' on his page....but nonetheless, she was gone the next day. Social networking is weird...lets face it. I'm of the generation who had to adapt to all this socially correct BS. Acting as though it is ok to be 'friends' with someone you were intimate with and it didn't work out, because that is how evolved we have all become in this great new century. Can I stand up and be the one who says 'Bul*!it'. I'm not really that evolved. I'm no different than any other woman who has found a man she wants since the beginning of time. I want to pretend no other woman has ever known him and he has never cared about anyone but me. Isn't that how woman are? I don't want to share and I don't believe for one second that the ex has pure 'friendship' intentions. I mean...are we now pretending that we are so sophisticated that women are no longer territorial? *I for one like my man to be MINE* Lets be real, the ex wants to be friends for one of two reasons - she wants him back or in case she wants him back some time in the future. Ok...maybe one more, so the next woman in his life never feels really that secure in their relationship. Yes, women are that mean * so are men, this goes both ways * Having your ex as a 'friend' ...well it's a stupid idea and basically a lie. Do you actually go to hang out together? Or are you just keeping tabs on what the other person is doing since the breakup? Do you really want your ex to find everlasting love? * You dont, don't lie * After all, if they find true love with someone other than you that just makes you look like a bigger loser. Right? Having your ex as a friend certainly doesn't enhance your next relationship in any way. It just makes the next person feel as though you can't let go of the past. And you know...that includes any reminders that she was ever there.....
so.....when is the bonfire party for the ex pictures? Mojitos are in order :)
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